The water energies express themselves at three different levels. It's possible to determine if your water energies are imbalanced and simple exercises I provide can help to bring them back into alignment.
The lowest level - believing you are not enough
The lowest level of the source energies is the part you hide from others. This level contains the sludge at the bottom of your being, the leftover chaos that tells you, "I am not enough. I am inadequate, and need to prove myself" But this foul sludge is the fuel for transformation. By finding and facing it you can draw strength from it and begin to live your purpose.
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I lived most of my life at this first level of source energies. I felt unworthy and constantly needed to prove myself. But one day I hit a breaking point and I could no longer run from myself. When I was forced into my own depths, my empty vessel became filled from the bubbling spring within, and a prayer that I had heard many years before rose into my mind: "Relieve me of the bondage of self." That prayer set off a current of power within me and I suddenly needed to run. I recited the prayer out loud to myself as I ran into the bathroom. I curled up in a fetal position on the bathroom floor. Exhausted, I went to the depths of my darkness. There I found stillness. I heard a voice, from deep inside that was louder than the voices of my parents and friends and partners that I had allowed to drown out my self.
That inner voice told me simply, "You are worthy." But that message changed my life. My foundation restructured itself. A sense of peace swept over me and changed the way I looked at everything. I realized that I was worthy - because I lived and breathed I had worth, something I hadn't known until that horrible, despairing, preciously magnificent moment. How To Get Pregnant On Your Own
The second level - living authentically
Marjorie's midlife had been so focused on being a wife and mother that her entire sense of self was tied into the well-being of her husband and two sons. Within two very trying years, her boys left home, her husband divorced her, and he left her feeling utterly alone with no clue about who she was or what she was capable of doing with her life. Matjorie was brought to her knees in despair, as her life as she knew it was over. At age forty-nine, she found a job as a school secretary and got an apartment; as her depression passed, she found herself drawn to music. As a girl, she had been a rather proficient pianist, but was told she couldn't make a living playing piano. She allowed herself to sing, and when she could afford it, she enrolled in guitar lessons. She now makes her living as a singer, motivating other women to find their inner passion.
The second level of being emerges from the acceptance of the truth that you are enough. At the second level you live abundantly. Everything you do reflects your inner being. At this level you live your purpose, whether it is digging ditches or writing beautiful music - whatever you do, you do with a strong sense of self and with all of your creativity and strength. At this level you understand that you can no longer do anything that compromises your true nature. You cannot stay with a partner or employer who doesn't treat you with respect. You support your innermost self with a sense of sufficiency and acceptance. As Mary Oliver says in her poem "The Journey":
... and there was a new voice
which you slowly
which you slowly
recognized as your own, that
kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do / the only thing you could do -
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do / the only thing you could do -
determined to save / the only life you could save.
The highest level - expressing abundance
Influential women throughout history like Pocahontas, Joan of Arc, Susan B, Anthony, Anais Nin, Flomrme Nightingale, Helen Keller, and lndira Gandhi possessed an innate strength that gave them power to change their world and those around them. We all have it, but not all of us know we possess this power. How To Get Pregnant On Your Own
At the third level you overflow with your own power. You become a fountain of unlimited strength, like a geyser. Your true inner self connects to your spirit and you become aligned with the highest energies of the universe. At the third level you are constantly fulfilled and joyful. Because you nurture, the root of your being, here you remain well and exhibit the highest state of being - physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
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Discovering Your Water Energy Imbalances
Who we are depends upon the deepest aspect of our kidney energies, our life's purpose and destiny. When waters are calm, they reflect deep inner harmony. lmbalanced kidney energies may express themselves as lack of self-love, purpose, or sexual energy. Physical manifestations of a general kidney imbalance include weakness, soreness, and pain in the lower back and knees, where the kidney channel runs. People with waning kidney energies will often have dark circles under or around their eyes. Kidney weakness may be further differentiated into kidney yin deficiency, which might be accompanied by signs of vaginal dryness, dry eyes, premature gray hair, dizziness, ringing in the ears, hot flashes, and night sweats; while lacking yang energies might result in symptoms such as low libido, profuse vaginal discharge, frequent, dilute urination, urgent, early morning loose stools, dull, cold-menstrual cramps, frigid extremities, and feeling cold most of the time.
If you suspect that you have these imbalances, it doesn't mean you need to rush out to see a doctor; you need to care for your foundation, your kidneys, by facing fears and looking within. Water energies should be replenished daily to keep the inner wellspring flowing. Choose to not wear yourself out by running on stress hormones, but become quiet, like a still pond, and take respite from the world. To learn more, you can check out How To Get Pregnant On Your Own.
